Hi Everybody,
First of all I would like to say that I feel and emphasise with anybody going through a breakup.
So my story
I had been seeing this girl for about 2 years. I was very much the man about town and enjoyed going out and hanging out with my friends when we met. I met her on a night out and instantly felt something towards her( I was no wet blanket I had been with girls, but never felt that kind of a feeling). Im 30 btw.In the begining I was very aloof and had trouble of letting go of my going out/party lifestyle. She very much chased me. But within a couple of months realised that I would rather spend time with her and lessen my time spent with friends. So to cut a long story short I fell in love with her.
We did live 80 miles apart and she didnt have a car so I would always drive to see her, pick her up from the station etc I didnt care if it meant spending time with her.
We had our difficulties as I do suffer from erectile dysfunction, but with her help managed to get it sorted.We would bicker but never really had any big arguements.
I took a job working within the events industry, which was very stressful and really took it out of me. But regardless of work I would always make up for not seeing her by driving up in the weekdays if i missed her at a weekeend. So I would alway see her at least once a week for a couple of days. The job and other things left me feeling stressed and tired a lot.
Then a month ago I had a really busy 2 weeks so didnt seee her. When I rang her during this period she seemed a bit distant and when I told her I loved her, she would reply "I know" not "I love you too" as before.
Then the kicker. I worked this event at the weekend and basically had to work 48 hours straight, so by the end was exhausted. When I rang her on the way home I could sense something was wrong. We finished the conversation and I felt really uneasy. So I text her asking why it seemed when we chatted recently it seemed like we were going to break up? She said that I should come up in a couple days and we would chat. I then proceeded to go into meltdown and insisted that I drove to see her.
When I got there she seemed very unfazed and just went on about the spark had gone and she required that from a relationship. Like many a poor sap I pleaded and cried. She cried as well but had clearly made up her mind.
I left it a couple of days and decided to go and meet her outside her work unorganised( I know bad move!). She was pleasant but very as matter of fact about everything. We went for a drink and I tried to keep it light hearted but her body language was crossed arms. We then went to dinner. I couldnt take the sharade any longer so I came out and told her that I love her. She then wouldnt make eye contact with me and went colder. It was horrible. So after a bout of saying I loved her with no response I started to get arrogant and started to point out some of her flaws and how I knew one thing, that she would not meet anybody that loved her as much as I did. She then seemed to warm up and suggested that we let the dust settle and chat soon. Chick psychology! Be sincere and its percieved as neediness and be a dick and they like it. So feeling I had made a breakthrough I started to walk her home and we parted company on the way home with a hug.
I text her asking about meeting up a few days later, but she was being aloof, always busy not responding. I broke after a few suggestions of meeting up and said that I understood I was making her uncomfortable and that I loved her, but would not contact her again. She replied just saying how she didnt want to meet up and lead me on.
So I then decided to get a plan together. I bought the Magic of Making Up and the M3 system by Michael Griswold. Now the Magic of making up was a load of rubbish. A short e-book that basically just said no contact, meet up, get married kind of thing. And would urge anybody to avoid buying it. Plus you get sent lots of emails from him suggesting you buy his friends products.
I found the M3 system much more rich in information. So I followed it with initiating no contact. Now I did this over christmas which was really tough. Really felt gutted when over christmas I did not hear anything from her. But understood that it was wrong for me to expect anything. I was my own man and this time was for getting me right. I did everything suggested, I analysed what had gone wrong and came up with the answer that it was lack of communication about everything that broke it
Then after 3 weeks as suggested,I rang her and left an answerphone message saying happy new year and told her I was off surfing today. I never asked her how she was and didnt suggest any meeting up etc, anything that would be construed as pressuring her or neediness.No reply for 24 hours so I broke and text her saying I understood why the breakup happened and the time apart was good for us. Stupidly I had to add that I missed her. Breaking the system rules. But that said if I had left it I wouldnt have heard anything I am sure. She replied saying she hoped I had a good surf and that she missed me too. But she agreed that it had ended for a reason and we should both try to move on. She said that she hoped if we ever bump into each other we could chat etc and ended it with take care xxx.
So sorry to go on but that is what happened.
I have tried to do my best to forget her I have been on numerous dates, slept with 3 girls in the last 2 weeks(all discreetly) but it all feels wrong. I am not some loser who cant get a date far from it. I just want her back and I know the problems that caused the loss of spark and for it to end. I know I can fix the problems as they are problems that would help me as well as her. But I cant tell her that as it just comes across as desperation.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated
Thanks for listening guys and I hope I can return and help you give me


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